It's not melodrama when there are no tears shedMy ex just told me that he’s getting married – and that he wanted me to be the first to know (ahhh… perks of being an ex!! *sarcasm*).
I was sooo not surprised.. but maybe at the timing, I guess.
I think we were both waiting for my reaction – that I would be upset, perhaps. But I wasn’t. I mean, well, this is what he wants – I want him to be happy and you know what, he does look happy. But I think I was rather stunned at how fast it all seemed to be.. I mean it was just last year after all…
When he told me that he wanted to tell me something, I knew it had to be that.. At first, I thought that he was pregnant (well, you know what I mean) but he’s not, yet I guess.
I don’t know.. it’s a weird feeling. I’m inspecting my feelings but other than the surprise, I don’t feel unhappy. I’ve already accepted that it’s over, completely.
I appreciate the fact that he told me personally and that I am the first to know. I think, well, it’s just decent to do so than to just hand me my invitation card (the invites aren’t ready yet).
It’s weird yet I think part of me feels left behind. Like he’s going to start a new life and I’m still doing the same-o, lame-o. It’s not that I want to get married now but I am beginning to wonder where I am at this stage of my life.
Feeling very ambivalent right now. I want a hug.